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Friday, April 30, 2010

Storm

I sorta feel like I've been on a roller coaster this week, as you could probably tell from the topics of my posts.  
 As most of you know....I don't work outside the home.  Even after almost 4 years, I have days that I still feel guilty....and others make me feel guilty....because of that decision that Pappy and I made when I quit my job.  I know in my heart of hearts that this was the decision that was right for us. 
 
Actually....God made the decision....we just had to step out on faith and go along with it.  Don't think it was an easy one to make, either.  I questioned and wondered and asked and did a LOT of praying!!
 
When I think back to that time....I sort of picture myself stepping off a cliff....like maybe at the Grand Canyon.....and it's a looooonnnngggg way to the bottom.....but as soon as I take that first step out into mid air....God's mighty hand reached out and caught me....and put me ever so  gently  back on solid ground. 
 
Has it been easy on only one income?  I'll have to tell you that at times "no".  But God has certainly not left us penniless.....our bills are all getting paid.....and there's even some extra at times for things we want....not just what we need.  We've cut back....and cut out....and changed some of our ways of living....which have turned out to be for the best!!!
 
 I've shared this thought with a couple of close friends.....I would much rather have my life as it is now....trying my best to live for Him....than to go back to having a lot of money....and thinking that I made it on my own.
 
  With our lives the way they are now....we depend on HIM....we take our needs to HIM.....and we give HIM the glory!!!   
 
I saw this posted on another blog....and it spoke to my heart.....describing a lot of what's gone thru my mind this week.  I'm sure without a shadow of a doubt that me seeing the video was an "it's not odd, it's God" thing!!!
 
If you've made a decision based on what you know the Holy Spirit directed you to do....don't doubt yourself....and don't let others cause you to doubt what you know is right!!! 
 
Proverbs 3:5 (KJV)
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart;
and lean not unto thine own understanding.
 
 
How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface
 
If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light
 
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I know everything will be alright
I know everything will be alright
 
Blessings to you!!!
 
In His Most Precious Love....and with mine!!!
 
(p.s....I'm gonna try to make y'all a promise of a more positive me next week!!!)

7 comments:

  1. Dear Deb, You are right where you should be. The Lord called us to be homemakers! Why should we feel guilty for being the best full time homemakers that we can be. He made you to make a beautiful, comfortable home for your hubby. It isn't just a job...It's a calling! I quit my job before I even got married because Tim wanted me to. I don't know why my office buddies and my boss were so angry at me. They made snide remarks like, "Well..gee..we can't all afford to quit working!" As if I wasn't going to work or something! Amazing! I know you must know God's word well enough to know what solid ground you are standing scripturally. If even our secular government recognizes your contributions to the home as being 50 percent...how can anyone even question what you are doing.

    Dear sweet Deb, if God be for us..who can be against us? Any time you feel bad..just email me. I'll do everything in my power to cheer you. I sure don't feel guilty! And I never will! My husband is the one who decides what is right for our home and staying home is what he decided. Let them take it up with him and with the Lord. I have a special post coming up and I'll email you the link privately. It will cheer you. I'm not sharing it yet because it is going to be a guest post. But I'll share it with you. It will encourage you. :o)

    Love you!
    Donna

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  2. Debbie you need to count your blessings you will find they out number your trials.

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  3. I love seeing blogs that are completely centered around the one and only thing that matters....It's always a good reminder.
    Life is so fast pace and busy and we can easily lose sight of whats important.
    xoxox
    bB

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  4. Stopping by from Trendy Treehouse's Follow Me Friday. I am your newest follower

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  5. Thanks for your wonderful share! I enjoy your blog so much. And yes you are so right Deb. God provided for our every need! Ne blessed. Cindy

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  6. Ms. Deb, you are doing what God wants you to do and Jack is on the same page with that too. You both are godly people who take matters to the Lord and what for His answers. I pray a lot if where I'm at is where I'm suppose to be according to Him. My life and all the things in it I have given to Him and things that are coming up I have given to Him to and I have such a wonderful peace. Such a peace that I can wait for His time
    and His answers. You are blessed the both of you. Love ya.........Robin :)

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  7. Dearest Debbie,
    I love your blog...and I could have commented on any of the first several posts I read...but I chose this one because I know exactly how you feel. I was an elementary schoolteacher for over 20 years...because I was sure that God wanted me to be a "light" in the public and private schools. Then He told me to stop...to begin homeschooling my own child. So I know your struggle with one income, but I also know your triumphs because you trust Him. God is so awesome...He provides for us in ways we could never imagine....boy, could I tell you stories. Perhaps some day I will get the chance. So glad we've connected and I will certainly be back to read more!
    With love and blessings,
    Laura

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