It's been so emotional for our family since July 15th...the day Pappy's Mom passed away. Not just that...Friday was our first grandson's second birthday, and that also brought tears...of joy, and also of sadness that the time is passing by so fast. Then, Jessica Leigh and I made a midnight run to the ER...Moms never, ever quit worrying about their children, do they, no matter their age??? Wonder why God made us with the ability to shed tears? I wonder about stuff like that sometimes. I know that scientifically it would be stated that they are to keep the eye moist...but what about emotionally? One definition for "tears" is..."an act of weeping, or grieving". I've heard people say that they think they would feel better if they could just have a good cry. I've had times that crying seemed to just flush away the sadness I was feeling and I did feel better. There are so many times that tears happen...yesterday morning I was "deviling" eggs and listening to the play list on my blog, and I cried...some of the words seemed to just touch my soul and explain exactly how I feel about God....or explained things that I just can't seem to put into words sometimes...I just seemed to be so full of emotion...still grieving over the loss of my Other Mom...upset over Jessica Leigh...wishing Pappy didn't have to work so much on Saturdays...and just plain exhausted!!! We went to a baby shower yesterday that my mother in law was supposed to be at...and she was so sadly missed. But...please don't ever think that you are all alone in your grief...or your happiness...God sees it all. He knows we're emotional beings (especially us girls)....after all, He made us. Who would know us any better than our Creator?
I love this scripture...it's what came to mind when I thought about tears:
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.
I can't even keep track of the number of times I've cried in the past two weeks....let alone my entire lifetime...but God knows. He collects them in His bottle...He records them in His book. For me...the cry baby that I am...that has to be an awfully big bottle and a huge book!!! WOW!!! I've stated this so many times...it truly humbles me that God loves me....me of all people....and why me....but He does....and for that, I am eternally grateful!!!
In His love...and with mine!!!
it seems i've shed so many tears lately, and i can cry at the drop of a hat.ReplyDelete
i'm so proud of you mom. for being who you are!