Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Transparent Tuesday.....

I've shared with y'all.....
that I sometimes suffer from depression.

 I think back.....
quite often.....
to the time that somebody wrote about my depression on a form of social media.  That really hurt my heart so much, even to this day,  and I have no idea why it was done.

If you've never known depression,
or been close to somebody who battles this terrible "disease".....
then, making fun of that person is the absolute last thing they need.

As a Christian,
battling depression can be even harder, I think.
I feel like I shouldn't be depressed....
that God should be enough.
(which, He is)
Those thoughts cause a load of guilt,
which doesn't help the "blue mood" at all.

All this being said.....
last week was really difficult for me.
As the week progressed,
I could feel myself sinking.
By Friday, I knew I was in trouble.....
and Saturday was absolutely terrible.
I sent a text to my best friend, requesting prayer,
and of course, she stopped and did just that.

Sunday morning, I didn't see how I could go to church.....
but I did because I'm part of the prayer team and my turn is always the third Sunday of the month, so I didn't want to bow out of that commitment. 
I told Pappy that it was going to be very difficult to pray for others,
when I felt like my own life was falling apart.
(exaggeration, I know, but when you're feeling that low, 
that's exactly how you feel)

Our team is made up of myself and 3 others,
one of which is a friend.....
not a close friend, but nonetheless, a friend.
Before we started to pray for the huge stack of prayer requests,
I spoke up and said that I felt I needed prayer myself before we started.
This friend bowed down before me on his knees and took my hand and prayed for me, and the rest of our group.

One of our cards was from a young lady who asked for prayer for her to
"continue to climb to the light out of depression".
God spoke to my own heart thru this precious lady's prayer request.....
and she doesn't even know it.

I'm sharing this because I know I'm not alone.
There are so many Christians who suffer from depression.
(Moses, Abraham, Jonah, Elijah, Jeremiah, 
and even David "a man after God's own heart")
If you're reading this and this sounds like you.....
NEVER hesitate to ask for prayer.....
but make your request to a prayer warrior.....
somebody whom you know truly cares about you and loves you and wants to see you get better.

Psalm 34:17-20
When the righteous cry for help, 
the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit. 

Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
    but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
  He keeps all his bones;
    not one of them is broken.

Breathing in Grace,


  1. Beautifully expressed, dear Debbie. You are a lady of such grace. Hugs to you.

  2. Bless your sweet heart! I'm saying a prayer for you right now. I know how it feels to beat yourself up because "you should be doing great because God is good and He's all you need"... very true, but sometimes you need other types of help also and God provides the medication or the counselor, or whatever is called for. I wish we Christians were better at making people feel ok about that!

  3. Father God, Surround Debbie with the warmth of your love. Open her heart and her mind to be able to see Your light in her life. You know her struggles Lord. We know that you are the God who comforts. We know you hold every tear we cry in your hands. You are our refuge in times of trouble and our ever present help. Father, we ask that you lighten the load which is weighing down her spirit for her. Help her to overcome. Speak love into her life. Send people who will be a support and a comfort to her when she needs it. In Jesus's sweet and holy name, we pray. Amen.

    Debbie, you are not alone. Please know there are pepole who care about you and are praying for you. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us.

  4. Oh my sweet friend, I have a sister that suffers as well and people do not totally understand the depths of this thing called "depression". Love how you have expressed your heart in this post! So very fitting! Hugs and blessings, Cindy


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