Oh, how difficult it is sometimes to really LISTEN to the Lord when He is trying to get my attention so He can teach me a lesson. Like I mentioned in a recent post, when He's got something for me to hear,
He just won't give up. Actually, I like that about Him. He made me so He knows how hard-headed this daughter of His can be!
Like with the blog comments.
It wasn't the comments, per se.....
but the need for approval.
I've struggled with this issue for as far back as I can remember. (can you tell my "love language" is words of affirmation?)
If I were to go and lay on a psychiatrist's couch,
I already know what he/she would say this "need" stems from.....
so I'll just save myself the money and the stress of having to deal with an age old problem and let the Lord help me through it.....
and my awesome Christian friends.
One of these friends is Ms. Cindy, who has taught women's Bible studies for many years. We recently e-mailed back and forth and oh, how wise she is. She gave me some insights into my "problem"
(and I don't think she even realized she was doing it.....
that God was using her right then and there to help a sister out).....
that helped me come to terms with some things that I struggle with.
Okay, maybe not entirely "come to terms",
but at least acknowledge where all this craziness for approval comes from (like I didn't already know).
Yes, God is doing a work in my heart.....
I know you all think I'm sporadic and spacey and all over the place in my thoughts and decisions.....
and you are oh, so right.
But, I truly want to be transparent.....
and HOPEfully help someone else in their struggles.
Just like my friend helped me.
Would you pray for me that I can "wake up and smell the coffee",
and take these words from my friend to heart?
(HOPE you don't mind me sharing, Ms. Cindy)
"You can't compare to another my friend because God designed you to be you and nobody else......You are fearfully and wonderfully made and unique in every sense of the word. No one else can do what God has called you to do in life...no one else can be you no matter if they tried. He chose you to be DEBBIE!
Breathing in Grace,
(p.s....please visit Ms. Cindy,
and tell her that her friend, Deb, sent you by to visit.