Monday, November 24, 2008

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to!!!!!

Although, I'm not sure that any men read my blog...if you might not want to read any farther...or, you might want to go ahead and read it if you want to better understand your wife/mother/daughter/sister/sister-in-law/aunt/female co-worker....or any other woman in your life!!!! you remember what I posted on Saturday??? Remember...the title was "Let's Bake A Cake", and I talked about how the things we go thru are to make us stronger and how EVERYTHING works for good to those of us who love the Lord???
Then...I saw on a church sign about how testing strengthens our endurance. Well....just let me tell you....I've totally decided that these blogs are just for me!! I had to go back and re-read Saturday's post again...just for myself. If none of you get one itty bitty thing out of what you read can rest assured that God is speaking to me for certain!!!

I'm not sure what in the world happened Saturday morning...or what God was testing me in...or what that day is preparing me for...but...I hope I don't have another day like that again anytime soon. Without going into boring detail....just let me tell you this...I was a basket case by the time the day was over. I really think it all started Friday. Jess and I went to Hobby Lobby....well, the boys, too....and what a disastrous trip. I'm surprised they didn't make us buy half the store before we even got to the checkout...and it had nothing to do with the was mostly ME!!! Let's just say....not a pretty sight....but it involved the head of an Indian...or a Pilgrim, I'm not sure which...laying in the aisle in one spot and his body in another!! acorn off the side of a platter!! And....Saturday...I just don't know what went wrong...except, everything. top it all off....I get car sick...and knew I should not have been riding in the back of a van going around windy roads in Cosby and about not a pretty took bowing down to Mr. Porcelain Potty...and a phenagren....and going to bed before 8:00!! (sorry...TMI, I know) As for Sunday morning....I have never in my entire life had a hangover....but they could not feel any worse than the after effects of that teeny-tiny little white tablet!!!

So...I'm saying all that to say this...have you ever had a day when you just thought that every single thing that you did and said and touched....just went to pot????? Do you ever have days when you wonder who in the world you even are, or what good you're for, or if you are even beginning to be the person God wants you to be???? Do you ever wonder who you are besides some body's daughter, or some body's wife, or some body's mother, or some body's daughter-in-law, or somebody's...whatever...with absolutely no identity of your own??? Does it sound like I'm having a pity party??? Well, just let me have it and I promise I'll be kinder, gentler, sweeter tomorrow!!! I actually think I have a point to make....somewhere...sometime!

Did God know I was having a bad day???
Did God already know I was going to have a bad day???
Will I have more bad days ahead????
Yes, yes, yes
(but on that third question...please, Lord, let's wait a while)

Will all our days be bright and cheerful and happy???.....NO!!!
Will we have problems with family members and co-workers and wonder "why me, Lord'???.....YES!!!
Will we wonder if at least one day before God calls us home, will we have an identity of our own, without being linked to somebody else???....Probably
Will that ever happen...identity of our own, I mean???....I don't know!!
But...I do know...that in the midst of my terrible day...there was somebody out there feeling worse...having it worse...hungry...cold...poor...jobless...homeless...away from home...beaten down...miserable...and me...even while feeling terribly sorry for myself....I have it made!!!

First of all, I am a Christian...and I have my Precious Savior to turn to, not just on a "bad" day, but every day...every hour...every minute...every second, if need be!!
I have a wonderful family....I miss my Dad, and don't you find that you miss family members even more around holidays? I know that Thursday, we will be mourning the loss of my mother-in-law when we join at "her house" to eat our lunch together. I have the best husband in the world...who listens to me gripe and complain and carry on because he loves me...bless his precious heart! God blessed us with Jess...then, The Dad...and what bigger blessings could I ever hope for than our grandsons?!?!?!? We have a home, and heat in this cold weather, and Pap has a job that provides for us and he has the health to go to his job, and we have vehicles to drive to get us wherever we want to go, and food in our fridge, and I could go on and on and on!!!

So....on this Monday before Thanksgiving....let's count our blessings....instead of our sorrows!!!

Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done

When upon life's billows
You are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged
Thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings
Name them one by one
And it will surprise you
What the Lord has done

Are you ever burdened
With a load of care
Does the cross seem heavy
You are called to bear
Count your many blessings
Every doubt will fly
And you will be singing
As the days go by

When you look at others
With their lands and gold
Think that Christ has promised
You His wealth untold
Count your many blessings
Money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven
Nor your home on high

So, amid the conflict
Whether great or small
Do not be discouraged
God is over all
Count your many blessings
Angels will attend
Help and comfort give you
To your journey's end

Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done

-Words by Johnson Oatman, 1897

Psalm 100:4-5 (NLT)
Enter his gates with thanksgiving; go into his courts with praise.
Give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the Lord is good.
His unfailing love continues forever,and his faithfulness continues to each generation.

In His Love...and with mine!!!


  1. It is okay to cry Deb... I agree it was a good day to go to bed early... I have those days and I tell Adam I going to my room and the boys are all your the rest of the evening... I guess I relate a lot to words of a song.. God hears the tears of a broken heart and understands your tears....That's why God gave woman emotions because men would not know how to deal with them....

  2. bless your heart! i do have pity parties often, and it's ok, but yes.........we have SO MUCH to be thankful for!

  3. I hate that you had a bad day, but I also had one last night, so I can relate. but like you said, we have so much to be thankful for!
    we all have pity parties every once in a while, and that's ok!
    love ya


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