Storm

I sorta feel like I've been on a roller coaster this week, as you could probably tell from the topics of my posts.   As most of you know....I don't work outside the home.  Even after almost 4 years, I have days that I still feel guilty....and others make me feel guilty....because of that decision that Pappy and I made when I quit my job.  I know in my heart of hearts that this was the decision that was right for us.   Actually....God made the decision....we just had to step out on faith and go along with it.  Don't think it was an easy one to make, either.  I questioned and wondered and asked and did a LOT of praying!! When I think back to that time....I sort of picture myself stepping off a cliff....like maybe at the Grand Canyon.....and it's a looooonnnngggg way to the bottom.....but as soon as I take that first step out into mid air....God's mighty hand reached out and caught me....and put me ever so  gently  back on solid ground.   Has it been easy on only one income?  I'll have to tell you that at times "no".  But God has certainly not left us penniless.....our bills are all getting paid.....and there's even some extra at times for things we want....not just what we need.  We've cut back....and cut out....and changed some of our ways of living....which have turned out to be for the best!!!  I've shared this thought with a couple of close friends.....I would much rather have my life as it is now....trying my best to live for Him....than to go back to having a lot of money....and thinking that I made it on my own.   With our lives the way they are now....we depend on HIM....we take our needs to HIM.....and we give HIM the glory!!!    I saw this posted on another blog....and it spoke to my heart.....describing a lot of what's gone thru my mind this week.  I'm sure without a shadow of a doubt that me seeing the video was an "it's not odd, it's God" thing!!! If you've made a decision based on what you know the Holy Spirit directed you to do....don't doubt yourself....and don't let others cause you to doubt what you know is right!!!  Proverbs 3:5 (KJV)
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart;
and lean not unto thine own understanding.
  How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I know everything will be alright
I know everything will be alright Blessings to you!!! In His Most Precious Love....and with mine!!! (p.s....I'm gonna try to make y'all a promise of a more positive me next week!!!)